Who’s In Control?

“You have power over your mind – not outside events. Realize this and you will find strength.” -Marcus Aurelius

I have a bad habit of letting outside circumstances get the best of me. This cold I’m recovering from is a perfect example.

Last Wednesday I received an alarming text from my parents concerning the health of our 14 year old Golden Retriever, Shadow.

As is my pattern, I jumped to the worst case scenario first thing. Talking about extreme measures and taking immediate, drastic action.

I got myself all worked up with tears pouring from my eyes, snot clogging my nose, and moans of despair issuing from my lips. I was in this state for awhile, even after speaking both to my parents and my partner, I was still very upset.

Being in this state prevented me from preparing for the very first community class that I am hosting at The Yoga Movement.

It wasn’t until I talked to my little sister who lives with my parents that I got a clear picture of what was going on. She not only lives at home, but was the main reason we got a dog in the first place all those years ago.

Needless to say, she is very involved in his day-to-day care as well as specialty care like grooming and veterinary appointments. She informed me that Shadow was doing just the same as when I had left a week earlier. Finally, with my soul and conscious soothed, I was able to prepare for class.

My theory is that getting so upset weakened my immune system so that by Sunday morning the tickle in my throat had grown to a full fledged scratch with an accompanying dry cough. Now I know that there are a variety of contributing factors to every illness. I wasn’t making the best food, exercise, and hydration choices that added to my weakened defenses. But I firmly believe that the enormous amount of stress of my thoughts caused my body created the catalyst for me to develop this cold.

When I read this quote today it summed up my situation perfectly. The only thing I have control over is my thoughts, not outside circumstances. I cannot control how or what other people choose to share. In hindsight, I realize that I jumped to the worst possible scenario without hearing the extenuating circumstances or any other opinions. This automatic assumption cost me time, peace of mind, and my good health.

Going forward, I will keep Marcus Aurelius’ wise words in mind and do my best to control my thoughts before jumping to conclusions and reacting inappropriately.

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